My mantra when i’m working, running errands, performing chores is:
“Do the Worst First.”
I have to forcibly repeat this to myself. Without it, I immediately fall back into my natural habit of doing the Worst Last. Or Tomorrow. Or not at all.
This results in feelings of guilt, self-defeat, anxiety and panic even (if a deadline approaches.) Even if I’ve worked for 12 hours straight, and I’m exhausted. If I’ve not spent my time on the stuff that really needed doing; or if I’ve procrastinated through jobs, while avoiding something which was maybe scary or awkward or uncomfortable or just a hassle – my inner self knows it.
These negative feelings wreak havoc on my supposed ‘free’ time.
Because no matter what I’m doing, eating, watching, seeing; my mind continues to remind me that I still have that thing to do; that I could have spent my time much more wisely; that my actions today might cause panic or stress further down the line.
Yes – it’s still technically free time. And yes – I can still enjoy it.
But it’s tainted.
Because it’s not really free, if you’re imprisoned by your own poor choices and the negative thoughts that follow.